Note to reader: 85 BPM, * is short-breath, ** is long breath, “*haw*” indicates a dramatic inhale, intentionally misspelled words are meant to be read slightly differently than normal spelling – like vahhmit instead of vomit.
Sudden stimulation cane-beats pumping through my veins in sugary sensations slamming heart beat palpitations:
continued situations bounce-ride hyper ventilation make a breathless combination.
Breathe! *HAW* Breathe *haw*
take a moment, slow your heart
rest your eyelids, make it dark
breathe *haw* breathe *haw*
calmly slow th’ cadence gently raise th’ pain apart.**
This too shall pass, ‘n I’ll prevail
my restless stress seems lightly veiled
availin’ this moment’s how I’ll meditate
I’m sorry for myself so I think I’ll ruminate:**
I’m scared alone in my own hell
– vahhmit down th’ wishing well
— wonder gushing flushing water,
kneeling praying for some other
feeling I can stomach,* a feeling I can take,*
I’m a nuisance of a bother, such a silly sad mistake.*
It’s my fault I’m stupid and now I’m really mad.
I’m the one who did this so my thoughts are surely sad:*
“Congratulations Tweak, ya lived up ta your name
– no one else expels your awful sense of inner blame.”